Sunday, July 8, 2012

Part II

 I've been told that my recollecting on the beginning of our journey has brought up quite a few bad memories for other members of our family. That was not my intention at all. My purpose is to remind and be reminded of just exactly how God has helped us through!

After July 4th when we returned to our "normal" lives, Kari remained very tired, our of breath and just overall not well. For 3 days I was concerned but tried to leave it alone. However, when I went to work Thursday, I dropped the kids off at aunt Lacey's house; they were going to play there that day and have a great time. Lacey called me shortly after I arrived at work and said that Kari was burning up with fever and was screaming for me. I assumed she hadn't rested enough and was simply tired and needed me. But there was an odd feeling in the pit of my stomach.

I picked her up at Lacey's where she had dropped into an exhausted sleep. She woke up quickly and immediately began crying. By the time we reached our house, she was rolling in the floor in pain. Pappy and Gammy came over and we prayed for bout 30 minutes. When it didn't ease up, we took her into the emergency room and left Malachi with Lacey.  I was prepared to force whatever doctor was there to do blood work and tests. What I wasn't prepared for was a young medical intern who listened intently and immediately ran tests and began blood work. After 3 different nurses came in to get blood work, we knew something wasnt right.

To shorten this down, that doctor sent us to UK to the children's hospital where we were met by our wonderful friends and family who were praying and were there to encourage us. I was so thankful to have them there. I'm not a loner, I prefer people by my side when times are tough! After an official bone marrow biopsy the next day, our greatest fear was confirmed. Kari had Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia.

I rarely forget anything in times like those.  It usually plays over in my mind quite often and little bits and pieces of the details come back to me.  One thing I remember is that I was a WRECK that first night.  I thought when they told us her diagnosis that I would totally lose it.  However, such a peace came over me when we found out that I ended up being the one to comfort the rest of our family!  God was merciful and gracious to all of us and we quickly came together as a family to get things done.  Malachi needed taken care of, we needed clothes and things from our house, I needed bills paid and "life" taken care of while we stayed at the hospital. Chris and Lacey kept Malachi the majority of the time.  Lacey decided she wanted to be a "stay at home aunt" for a few weeks.  LOL! Malachi was taken care of so well and I am very appreciative.  My mom, Gammy, and Pappy also took turns with him when they weren't at the hospital with Kari and I. I invite you to go back to last July's posts and read how God kept his hand on us through that first very terrible month.

When I think back to what all God has done for us and how He has encouraged in the darkest times, provided financially, emotionally, physically, and overwhelms me. God has truly kept his hand on our family and most of all, Kari.  I've watched my little girl (still a baby, really) blossom into this fantastic little fireball of courage, faith, hope, and confidence.  She touches people's hearts just by sitting and talking to them.  She sings with such a confidence and assurance of who she's singing to...I cry just talking about it.  If she has been chosen to go through this, I'm thankful that God will someday make her a great testimony for HIM!

I also have to commend Malachi.  He has adjusted so well to everything that has happened.  He's learned to pray for his sister and be protective over her and I.  He is such a big help to me and was always very gentle with Kari when she was at her worst.  I remember thinking that it was gonna be a nightmare when I brought her home from the hospital and to take care of both of them by myself with Kari so sick...I couldn't have been more wrong.  We have had ROUGH days but God has truly helped us come together and make it work here at home.  Not everyday has been awesome, that's a given.  But our good days outweigh the bad thanks to a great and mighty God!

This has been a very long post and my mom just glanced at it and said, "Gee whiz, Ashlee, are we gonna have to read all that?"  Oops.  I get long winded sometimes.  Good thing I don't preach.  Ha ha!!

Thanks to all of you that have helped us through this past year.  I can honestly say that I have added MANY friends to our list in the past 12 months.  It blows me away that God has placed such awesome people in our lives.  My family (ALL of you) is amazing.  Pappy, Gammy, Sissy Bran, Memaw, Aunt Lacey, and Uncle all have pulled together like none other to make everything easier for us to handle.  We love you with all our hearts!

Most of all...thank you, Jesus for being there and for making it possible to get through the tough times of life and survive!  But not only survive,  but also to have joy and peace and happiness in the middle of it! 


  1. Happy 1year to all of you! Words can not even express what a wonderful person you are Ashlee. You have a special gift and your daughter is an absolute JOY to be around! You both are a HUGE inspiration and I LOVED how the whole time you and Kari shared your story with me that you both wore a beautiful smile!! That shows your will power, determination, trust and faith in knowing JESUS has got this!! I am honored and bless to have met you and to be able to follow your blog and pray for your journey as Kari gets stronger and fights that ole' dragon!

    1. Thanks so much, Tasha! Kari was telling my mom about seeing you at DQ the other day. She was so proud that she told u her story. :) So glad we met and that God brought yet another friend to us! :)

  2. Wow. You are so encouraging. May God continue to bless and keep you all in the palm of HIS hand.

  3. Ash I just wanted to say how wonderful it was being with you and babies this weekend. I so enjoyed our visit on Sunday. I got to spend some real quality time with them. We laughed and read and eat and was just together. I was so impressed while we were playing that hospital game. One of the questions was "How do you deal with being afraid" She said "The Lord is my shepherd and I shall not be afraid." I just wanted to sit and cry. She said Mama I am fighting this cancer dragon. I don't understand all but I do see how GOD in his infinite wisdom is causing her to turn to HIM in a mighty way. Bless you daughter and your little ones. You have 2 treasures....

  4. I am blessed I have met you and your daughter
    through your blogging.

    I will keep you continued in my prayers your family.

    Your children are so beautiful!!!! Gongrats one year!

  5. This is Sissy Bran. All I can say is *cry*cry*sob*cry*......:) I'll have to post more when I'm not you fellers!! :)

  6. You should preach-you've always got something beautiful to say:) Love you dear friend, love how you had such a peace when you first heard the diagnosis. Says a lot about you and the wonderful person that you are.

    Love you, miss you.


  7. You're very welcome Ashlee, it wouldn't let me reply above, sorry! Tell Miss Kari that Trinity wants to have a play date and get to know her new friend! :) I am SO glad she got to share her story with my family also! SHE IS AMAZING!!!

  8. Wow Ash you sure know how to get the tears flowing, this is an amazing story! I'm so proud of lil miss Kari and her brave Mama (and Malachi bless his heart)! Yall have come a long way in the past year :)
    Love ya, Trina

  9. Love ya friends!'. PTL for grace to make it day at a time.


  10. I sent you another email. Check your trash bin!


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