Church!! I love it, Kari loves it, Malachi loves it...we had a great time in the Lord tonight. For those of you who don't know us personally, we're old time Holiness and we like us some singin' and shoutin'!! From the start of the first song, it seemed that God was there with such a sweet presence and I'm so thankful that He allowed us to be there.
A little background first: about 2 weeks before Kari was diagnosed, the kids and I went with Pappy, Gammy, Uncle Chris, and Aunt Lacey to visit a church in London because Pappy was preaching there. Lacey and I sang Everything Is Gonna Turn Out Right to encourage the people there. As you put it, Sis. Amy....little did we know it would be us needing the encouragement of that song! This song has been with me through many a trial in the past 3 years and I guess I kinda think of it as "my song."
Anyway, tonight at church I sang it with all my heart and it was so good to feel the nearness of the Lord. Kari also decided she wanted to sing. She sang God's Little People and Glory Somebody Touched Me. LOL! It was precious and she sang with more sincerity than I've ever seen out of her before.
Bro. David (aka Pappy), our pastor, preached a wonderful, encouraging message about the Lord being with us even when it seems He's far away. Then at the end of the service, Kari wanted to testify and she said (in her own little accent) "I just want to thank the Lawd for bein' heah tonight." Seriously? How sweet is that? She was so proud to be there and she was as sincere as she could be.
Kari is coming to terms with her hair. Gammy and Pappy told her today that when her hair was gone, she could shave Pappy's, Bubby's and maybe Uncle's hair so they would look like her. She giggled when she heard that...a giggle with a little meanness behind it, maybe? :)
I talked to my friend, Chrissy, tonight for a long time. I think I talked my way into being encouraged! I was already encouraged tonight at church and then after telling Chrissy what God has already done for us, it finished me off! Chrissy and I talked about the fact that God is GOD...He has all these things to do, all these people to listen to, to heal them, to encourage them, to protect them and yet He hears US too. No matter how dark the night, how hopeless the situation...God hears us because His love for us is that great.
I've found that God is teaching me something about His will. God will make a way for His will to be done even if it takes something like this. While I will be honest and say that I HATE it that my baby has to go through it, I know that God has a special plan for her life. I want God to be real to Kari and for her to know the awesome power of God. Above anything else for her life, I want her to know Jesus as a personal Savior and for her to grow up desiring to be in His perfect will. I can choose to be victorious through this (although I know there may be times when I will feel helpless and hopeless) and give God the praise through this storm, or I can be down and out and question God repeatedly.
I think I'll choose to let God perform His perfect will in this situation and see what awesome things He has in store for us. :)
I started this blog to document the story of my kids as they grow up. However...July 8, 2011 changed that slightly when Kari was diagnosed with Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia (ALL) . We invite you to share our journey as we walk through it with the Lord's help!